deconversion

I said in a post on one of the forums yesterday that I hesitated before I used the word "atheist" to describe myself. Yet, I had an interesting experience that made me go hmmm.

I am involved in a discussion on another web site with a deist and I realized that I am, quite passionately, arguing the atheist position! It didn't really dawn on me until last night when I was challenging (again) the deist to explain how he reasoned his way to god.

I asserted that he presupposes god exists and then reasons his way back to that predetermined conclusion. I allowed for the possibility that he wasn't aware of the fact that he was doing this, but nonetheless, he was. He even went so far to argue that this god loves his creation and I really jumped his case for that! How can he reason from nature, as deists do, that the creator loves his creation? I need to tell him I think that too much of his former christian theology is still influencing how he processes thoughts about god.

So there you have it. I am an atheist...pardon me, I have to go now, this is an emotional moment.

I still like apatheist though...